A very dear mentor would video tape our rehearsals. She said she would go home, put the video on her big screen, pour herself a glass of red wine, and spend hours watching through squinted eyes. Rehearsal today provided a more embodied sense of structure, but my squinted eyes have evolved into a furrowed brow, pursed mouth, and tilted head. Watching the work provokes a different feeling that being inside of it. I wonder what that means. I'm looking forward to receiving feedback tomorrow and continuing this investigation. Angie has graciously agreed to continue this journey with me, past tomorrow's performance.
"I beg you... to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without ever noticing it, live your way into the answer." -Rainer Maria Rilke